:: Dreams and Other Chimera ::

:: 27.9.02 ::

it's been awhile since this thing was updated, so I figured, I had better. I missed going to the gym. All of my efforts at trying to organise my life resulted in an unplanned explosion of expenses. Gah! I really oughta take some sort of accounting class, or at least hire a fiscally responsible midget to watch my wallet or something.

I got a shocking E-mail awhile back from my friend Joanne who occasionally reads this site. (and sorely needs to e-mail me back again as well!) I guess I am a bit on the depressive side. I always have been, I guess. Don't particularly like it, but that's just who I am. Some people are ecstatics, some adventurers, I am just a guy who is down on his luck alot. Paying my dues, as it were. ( or not, which might account for the sorry state of financial affairs, hehe)


I am working on getting my webpage up and running (which I am sure some of you no doubt are saying "You've been saying that for ages" but it's true) and I am trying to think of a good layout. i don't really want to be all depressive like I normally am, but a plain spartan one would be kinda uncool too.

I am also thinking to turn my living area into a bit more uplifting den. Right now it is crowded and mussed up and dirty. It always feels like I don't have time to get everything done. Which is aggravating and stresses me out. I have a pretty high stress life, though I really shouldn't. I do it all to myself of course, I underestimate the amount of energy it really takes to change everything.

I really have to stop trying to live my life for other people and just do it for me. That's the hardest part of all. I don't even know where to begin!

:: The Other Guy [+] ::
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September 12, 2002. 10:15 P.M. The Royal Alexader Hospital in Edmonton Alberta was proud to present, weighing in a 6 pounds 11 ounces DARA CECILY LONDON! WHOO! WHOOHOO!!!!! THE coolest baby ever.... my niece. But wait, what if you have your OWN baby one day? Huh tough guy? What then?

Well, I don't plan on ever having babies.(that requires another person, for one) I am not suited for domestic family life. I am irresponsible, and stubborn, and too unstable. I am whimsical, and volatile, and dramatic. I am over emotional and out of whack and unbalanced.

Adn i am tired. So i am going to bed.

G'nite.

:: The Other Guy [+] ::
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four weeks. Here I sit upon my chair. Run my fingers through my hair. Contemplate to write a letter. Wishing for my life grow better. Wanting to kill my co worker. Writing blog like song "Berserker." Grammar do I Mutilate, while inner thoughts extrapolate. Until I can triangulate the essence of my present state then see the clock, is getting late. My droopy eyes make me frustrate! To tired now to masturbate!

I talk to girl in switzerland. She has become my new best friend. Talks to me on ICQ. And sometimes writes an E-mail too. Called me on the telephone. Both of us are rarely home. Meeting up is rather rare. Send her swiss butt hugs with care!

Got phonecall from girl at work. shock me so much muscles jerk!. Message told me to call back. Nearly had a heart attack. But I'm glad she is my friend. Going back to school again. Only see her on weekend. Not same shift, it makes me sad. Comfort self with much strongbad.

Mom not coming soon as planned. Hong Kong to BC flight canned. Hope to see her sometime soon. Hope she does not clean my room. Dusting and laundry left too long. Mom find porn stash feels just wrong. Need her help with student loan. Wonder if she's moving home. Wish she was her for grandchild. Sister's baby drive mom wild!

Sister having baby soon. My new title "Uncle Goon". Have to say I cannot wait! Baby niece or nephew GREAT! But I know not what to do. Scared of cleaning baby spew! Stinky baby might make mess. Changing diapers much duress.


Money troubles close to home. Must find way sell garden gnomes! Extra income needed now! Must buy grocery, and how! Need some extra income soon. Lack of revenue my doom.

That is all I have to write. Now I sleep, so have goodnight.

:: The Other Guy [+] ::
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