:: Dreams and Other Chimera ::

:: 14.10.04 ::

If anyone is wondering, I mean no irreverance by this.

Today at lunch, I went down by the trees, to where purity is being slowly consumed by capitalism. My pilgramage had begun after a short drought. My pilgramage was to my small piece of Truth. To where I could go and appease myself to my diety's and come away with a small understanding of heaven. Most people say that I'm an athiest, this isn't true. I have my gods and demons, my ethics and moral codes. Quite honestly, my religion fits quite nicely into the universe. It awnsers the questions that I was taught about the questions all men have or will eventually have. But mine is mine. For my reasons and against all odds.

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The cycle is almost over for me. Raging against the dying of the light is all good, but what happens when the light is gone? Well, I guess I have to go with the universal constant now. Or at least as close to one as I can get.


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Thats my braindump for now.

:: James [+] ::
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A note to telemarketers:

Not that I'm likely to ever want anything you are selling, but when you ask me "What is your first name?" to which I reply "James" It is not a generally recommended tactic to give me a lecture on the consequences of lying to you. If I ever should happen to tell you that my name is James, I'm telling the truth. If I happen to tell you that my name is Bregon, I am also telling the truth. If you want my Legal name, It also happens to be James. But should you infer by looking at the registered name on my phone bill prior to this october you will see L J Lastname. This does not mean that my legal first name starts with a L. But it does mean that my sisters name does.

Later

James (Really)

:: James [+] ::
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So I went out on saturday for a little madness. As previously blogged I took Cardiac and Lil with me. I went to revel, Lil to dance, and Cardiac went to display his own special form of social belonging.

The show was spectacular. KMFDM had the crowd jumping and screaming and singing from start to finish. The club was small and packed. The show was sold out, and all sorts of people who I know showed up there. Every once in a while it feels good to participate in that sort of revelry. Madness is the easiest way for me to participate in a group activity. Order or madness. I don't know why but there is something about sacrificing your body to the crowd while they do the same. No one is special, no one is better. Bigger and smaller is the only concern. But only if your thinking too much.

Madness and revelry.

Anyway, aside from that on saturday night I left the concert, high on adrenaline and exhaustion, as well as several blows to the head, and when we got back to my car, one of the windows had been smashed. The left rear one to be exact. I don't care about the window, that is just money. Just a thing. The fact that: 1. they stole one of my guests' jacket. 2. They stole the LEAST expensive thing in the car. When I get burglarized, though I hesitate to refer to it in that way, I espect compatence.

Anyway, the last signs of that will go away tomorrow.

Today is calmer. I should do something productive.

:: James [+] ::
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I've been long on inspiration lately but short on time to put them down. Hence they fade to obscurity while waiting for release. I moved. My internet seems to be working properly. Some putting away of stuff needs to be done yet, but for the most part, I'm done. I found my copy of Trainspotting so I can read that again. I've been wanting to do that for a while.

So now life gets dull again. No excitement, nothing out of the routine. Boring which will become tedium and so on until I'm running out of my head with mindnumbing nothing.

I think I'm gonna try to avoid that this time.

I'm going to KMFDM tomorrow night with Lil and Cardiac. It sounds like it'll be good. I found out today what KMFDM actually means: Kein Mitleid Fur Die Mehrheit. Nothing to do with Depeche Mode at all.

I'm thinking about getting tickets to Auf Der Maur with Limblifter and Matthew Good. But thats a secondary inspiration at this point.

And thats all for right now.

James

:: James [+] ::
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Well, I'm stealing someone's internet connection to post this.

Just wanted to say the move went mostly well, and I'm doing ok.

People should really encrypt these things. I could be having so much fun right now. But I'll be good and sign off.

James

:: James [+] ::
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